A dose of Reality

Times have changed.

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 14:50:23 GMT

So.... I moved out of my dad's house last night... Out of the blue. For the past two months, him and I have not been getting along like we usually do.. There has been so much going on, and lately, I have just been bottling everything up inside...

Things got really bad when I came back from Spain.

I really dont know how to explain how things got so bad, but they did... I suppose it could be a mixture of things. Trying to go to school, not being able to fill out my fasfa's, work, money, court, debt, trying to figure out what to do about everything. I can only handle so much until it finally takes over.

Shitty thing is now I have to hold off on moving to Austin. It will take me a bit longer to save up for the move out of state.. But I think I am still going to go for it.. Just for the change of scenery.

*sigh*

Woah

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 15:02:47 GMT

I will be in Spain in six days... Crazy.

My stomach has hated me the past two days... WTF....If I am sick when I go to Spain, I am going to be pissed.

Other then that, my job interview for Austin went well I think.. So I am hoping this all works out in the end. I think this whole scenerio will be a nice change for me. Something I cant really expect anything from, since I have never lived outside of Arizona. I am excited to see what Texas has in store for me.

I just want to go.

Fri, 18 May 2007 17:16:56 GMT

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies

These lyrics pretty much sum all of it up. I just want to go. I wish my dad would let me make my own mistakes for once.

Time for a change.

Tue, 15 May 2007 15:05:26 GMT

It is time for a change.. I am sick of the same old shit going on.

When Aug/Sept rolls around, I will no longer be living in the great state of Arizona. I have decided I am young, single, and have nothing here to hold me back from moving on to see what else is out there. I have lived here my whole life, and in all honesty.. I am terrified to leave. But, I want to know what the world has, and I want to know if I can make it on my own. Yes, I will have help on the way thanks to some close friends, but this will be the end for Arizona. For now. Who knows, I might come back in a month, a year, or maybe 10 years. For now, its off to Austin, TX... Then after that... I really havent decided.

I really dont know what to expect.

Other then that... I just found out both my registration and insurace expired.. And I dont have the finances to pay it off.. Yay... So no driving around for Noelle anymore.

Fuck.

I realized a couple things about the scene this past weekend. While I was at the party, observing the people around me, I realized there is nothing here for me anymore other then the music. Yes, there are those people that are like family to me. I just get the feeling I am out of place when I go to parties now. Nothing seems the same anymore. Everything is so different. I dont think I can explain the way I feel about it other then the fact its not a great feeling. I love the music... I used to love the people... The vibe... But everything is just so "off". I think a break from parties will help me none the least. After this weekend.. Dont expect me to show for a long time, if ever again while I am still here.

It is time for me to make a change. Things are not working out the way they should. Yes, I know... The good things in life do not always come so easy... But its those good things I am not searching for... It's pure satisfaction that I want... Satisfaction knowing that I am OK... Even if I may be broke, helpless, unsure of the coming months/years ahead of me. I just want things to be gratifying in some way.

Well... I am doing nothing but rambling on and on.. SO I will shut up now.

It makes me wander.

Sat, 05 May 2007 21:03:43 GMT

Sometimes I really cannot understand the things people do. As some of you know, I have been having some issues with a couple people. If someone hates you so bad, and wants you to "go away", wouldnt you want to deal with the person themselves instead of material items the person owns?
Nothing pisses me off more then people who want to fuck with personal property instead of fucking with the person themselves. But, this does show me how inmature and low these people are willing to go. Personally, I am not going to plan anything in return. Why would I want to stoop to someones level so low? I am just going to let this slide with a smile on my face. This shows me that I can be the bigger person, which in my eyes, wins all in the end. I hope they are happy with what they did to my truck.

Fucking children.

Very insightful.

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 19:22:08 GMT

Yesterday, I had a very insightful conversation with a good old friend of mine. She is someone who likes to sit back and watch people before she joins in. Something I am very far from becoming. As most of my friends know, I am loud and thrive off attention. As I was talking to her about some things going on in my life, she brought up some very good points I really never thought about before.
She helped me realize what I want, and what I need to do to get it.

Now all I need to do is find it.

BTW - My blog is starting to all come together where I want it to be... Comment on that shiiiit.
AZ Rave Scene

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 19:45:12 GMT

So it seems as if I forget this site is here at all... I dont post as often as I should. This has always been a good way for me to get the things off my chest...

Lately, things have been all sorts of crazy. I feel as if I need a vacation everytime another work week goes by... Not just a two day weekend vacation, but a long week or even month long vacation. I would love to get away from Arizona for a little while and get things worked out inside me. There is soo much going on, and I am afraid its going to take it toll on me sooner or later.

My crush is no longer a crush, the money is no longer an issue, the job is starting to get old, my living situation has turned into shambles, and I am just tired. All the time.

I miss an old friend of mine dearly... Someone I could talk with for hours, have the best time with, love. Its too bad he doesnt feel the same way...

Things will turn around, I have a feeling the next month will hold good things for me. I am just hoping that is the way its really going to pan out.

Other then that... New blog post..

bah

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 20:26:22 GMT

So I guess all the beer drinking has finally caught up to me.. Because I just got told I looked much "healthier" which is a nice way of saying "Hey Noelle, you're getting fat!"

So yeah.... I think I am going to start exercising more often now..

I feel like shit now, thanks for ruining my day asshole. :-/

sigh

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 20:33:09 GMT

I cannot wait until August.. End of story...

Dont mean to be emo today but...

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 01:23:59 GMT

I fucking hate the fact that every time I put my heart out to someone they always break it.

So I have a huge crush..

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 15:02:26 GMT

On this guy...

He is amazing..

But it scares me.. Cause now I am vulnerable.. Even though there is just something about him, I know things will be ok.

Update.

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 16:07:15 GMT

Here is a short update in the life of FaMouS.

* I had the best birthday ever! Thank you to everyone that came out. I hope all of you had a wonderful time.
* The singles night planning that I have been doing has been working out especially well... It's a good way to meet new people, so if you are interested in attending one, let me know and I will give you details.
* Work is going amazingly well, I love this place.
* I have met lots of new friends. These people are amazing!!!!!
* Still single, but thats a good thing.
* My blog is almost up and running, its been cached and is now ranking #3 in Google :) Arizona Rave Scene
* Spain is a definate go, I will have the funds to make my trip.
* I have Tool tickets, FUCK YES!
* Also have tickets to Killswitch Engage, the drag races this weekend, and Mission G!
* I'm still sober off EVERYTHING. Except beer.
* I know what I want to go to school for, and I will be starting in the Fall.
* I still live at home, which is fine... I got a huge new TV in my room... WOOO!

Life is still good. Wow.

Take That ZOMBIES!

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 17:43:53 GMT

First of all.. I am good.

Second... I have a nail in my tire. Fuck

Third...

I eat zombies for breakfast with a spoon.

Other then that... Life is pretty much alright. lol

Tear me away

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 15:06:09 GMT

For once in my life, I am ok with the way things ended up.

I am really looking forward to what this year is going to bring.

It feels good to be clean again.... I am happy once again. Nothing can tear me down at this point.

Sorry to all of the good friends I have not seen in awhile... I've been lost.

Because days come and go
But my feelings for you are forever...

Not anymore.

Mmmmhmmm.

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 18:00:48 GMT

I have a crush on Random...

Oh yes I do.

I must have....

But other then that, I told you what goes around comes around in the end. :)

As the days go by...

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 19:17:53 GMT

Things seem to be "off".

Not in a bad way, but not in a good way either...

Confused.. '-'

I can't decide what to do for New Years damnit!

Hehe

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 15:23:50 GMT

I'm so excited.. I found a piggy!!!

So yeah, I get my little pot belly piggy after all.

I think I'll name him PJ.. lol

My hangover sucks.

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 16:32:03 GMT

I really thought I would have learned my lesson by now. Drinking massive amounts of liquor during the week is not good. I'm at work, with a beautiful hangover. Good times for sure though.

I've decided I am a very big fan of beer though. So so good.

Meh, but enough with the alcoholic talking in me... On to other things...

Company christmas parties kick ass. For sure!

And um... I think I came to a decision about a certain someone.. :) I just hope things go the way I want them to. Looking forward to this weekend... Concerts and raves in one weekend is definatly teh win!

Jen, you should be teh win too... and come hang out with me this weekend.. my treat... so make it go! <3

I love my job.

Word.

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 14:56:58 GMT

Life has been a trip lately.

The last of the holiday's is finally almost here. I cant wait for this year to come to an end. But, now that I look back on '06, a part of me wants this year to begin again. A friends post got me thinking about some things that happened over the past year that I wish never occured. Sometimes I wish I could go back and change the way I reacted over certain situations, how I should have never become involved with certain people, making the right decisions not to take certain drugs, keep in contact with good friends from the past. I know there is no way I can go back and change those things, but then again, I am glad I cant. I mean, where would I be today if I did change the things I wanted to? Who would still be around me? What kind of person would I be?

I know I did some growing up over the year, and its helped me to view things very differently then I did before.

I know a year ago, I didnt see things the way I see them now.

There were so many great memories I will ALWAYS remember.. here are only a FEW of them...

* Bobsleding down the raver house stairs in the early hours of the morning.
* Randomly driving to Jen's house, pretending we are all on a roller coaster..
* "My life is an inside joke"
* I still have your binky Rabbit. :)
* Drawing on balloons and smoking Hookah in Jamils closet.
* Randomly making Chris go on random vacations with me... Cali, Mexico. I miss you <3
* Making Jamil sell Steven and I his soul for Dog clickers. tehehe
* Car trips down to Tucson
* A random night of Dairy Queen

I noticed that most of these memories have to do with the Raver House. I will miss the awesome times that house brought, but even though its gone, I know I will still have the same fun thanks to the amazing people that used to live there.

Good times for sure.

But onto a light note...

Does anyone know where I can get a miniature pot belly pig? I want one now.

The holidays..

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 14:57:00 GMT

I am so sick of the fucking Holidays, I am ready for them to be gone.

It seems like no matter how hard I try and make plans so I'm not stuck at home by myself, they always seem to get ruined. Every year, for the past three years its happened.

I had plans to travel for Christmas... Now I cant go because the people I was supposed to go with "forgot". Fuck you.

New Years, I was supposed to be in Cali, now I cant go, cause they want to go to a 21+ party. Fuck you.

These days really have no point.. I would rather be working.

Sick

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 10:38:57 GMT

So I am sick again, and now I dont think i'll be able to make it to Unity #6... That pisses me off...

Blah Blah Blah

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 17:33:43 GMT

So I am having a very difficult time trying to decide what classes I want to take..

I have one down, English.. Now I need to decide what else I want/need to take.

Its between Psychology, Math, Biology, Art, or a Web Development class... Help?

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!! DAMNIT.

But other then that... I cant decide what the hell to do this weekend..
Truck is sorta outta commission.

Oh and yeah, Christmas sucks.

Sometimes I cant wait.

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 21:30:07 GMT

So the third book to the Maximum Ride series is coming out in May. I already bought it pre-ordered along with another James Patterson book to hold me down until then. Both Jason(guy I work with) and I have been waiting FOREVER to hear the release date, now its in May. I can't wait!!!!

Another thing, New Years should be all the amazing this year. California, here I come.

Thank you Jon and Marcus for inviting me along. It shall be good times as usual.

I cant wait for my fake ID damnit, I want a beer, like now. Or better yet, I think I might just go buy a huge bottle of everclear and some juice... Justice Juice anyone? I think so.

Other then that, I think I might be stable again, only a select few of you know what that means. And yes, I am ok.

Work is going great, as I am sitting here right now typing from my work desk, lol. Financial stability is in the midst. YAY! So easy to work here... So those of you who have gotton myspace friend requests from a company called TickCo Premium Seating, please except and help support my cause!!!!

I have a new crush, and I think I might get him soon... hehehe
<3

Life is good.

Love you all.

I've decided...

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 20:57:15 GMT

To start a band, and call it the tired fork, because of this...

I'm a loser.

Noelle Lynne Noble's Aliases

Your movie star name: Chips And Salsa Billy

Your fashion designer name is Noelle London

Your socialite name is Nobsey Ibiza

Your fly girl / guy name is N Nob

Your detective name is Mammals Millennium

Your barfly name is Pasta Beer

Your soap opera name is Lynne 177

Your rock star name is Snickers Plane

Your Star Wars name is Noemis Nobdan

Your punk rock band name is The Tired Fork

The Amazing Meganame Generator

Things I'll never say to your face.

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 16:59:02 GMT

Things I'll Never Say

1. List things you want to say to DIFFERENT people but know you never will.

2. Dont say who they are.

3. Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.

4. Never discuss it again.

1. I wish I could tell you that I'll always be there for you, but you will never except me.

2. I wish I could tell you I will always love the way you make me laugh.

3. You need to understand there will never be an "us".

4. You are nothing but a stuck-up snobby bitch and I would love to tell you how much I would enjoy burying your body in the desert.

5. I wish things were back to the way they were when you used to tell me what was on your mind. We could work things out, not anymore.

6. I believe our friendship will never be the same because of me.

7. When I first met you, you were my best friend, now your nothing but a worthless piece of shit. I hope I never see you again.

8. I'll never let you see me cry over you.

9. I am jealous of you, you have so much love in your life, when I have nothing.

10. I love our friendship, I just wish you didnt make such a stupid mistake.

11. You need help.

12. I wish things were the way they were between us 2 years ago, so I didnt have such heartache.

13. I wish I would have never met you.

14. You don't understand me anymore, quit trying to help.

15. Let me be who I want to be, stop trying to manipulate me into being someone I'm not.

16. You will never know my true feelings about you.

17. I think I have a huge crush on you.

18. I wish I had the balls to tell you to go to hell and never come back. haha

19. I wish I could tell you I miss the girl that used to come with me to the Raver House and drink, where did she go? Because I hate the new you, but I still love the old. Come back.

20. I wish I could tell you that I'll always be this way, there is no way to make it change.